Wow! It seems like every time that I start to draw closer to the Lord
(through prayer or delving into His word), I come under attack. The devil is
like an annoying little brother, he knows just what buttons to push to drive me
crazy! This time, he is using my kids.
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But, something has gotten into my youngest one! She
is constantly giving me "looks." They range from smug little "grandma catered to
me when you didn’t want her to" looks to all out rolling her eyes when she gets
in trouble!
Now, I have to admit that I have felt convicted lately because I don’t spend
enough time with my girls and the time that I do have at home is spent cleaning
or on the computer (or some combination of the two). So I may be extra sensitive, but I just don’t feel like
there is enough of me to go around. I want to be in God’s word , so I am reading
my Bible and some other Christian books. I want to keep bugs out of our house,
so I spend a good portion of time cleaning. I need to bring home a paycheck, so
I spend quite a bit of time at work every week. I want to be a good wife, so I
spend time snuggling up the hubby at night. I want to....I want to....I want
to.....I need to....I need to....I need to.....Unfortunately, my girls get the
short end of the stick when it comes to one on one time. I get torn between
setting a good example for them and accomplishing all the things that I need
to.
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Satan knows where he can hit me below the belt right now and boy is he going
to town. The bad thing is, I don’t know how to block him. I don’t know how to
not let these things get to me. I don’t know how to rein my house and my life
back in so that I can re prioritize it.
I understand completely. It's a balancing act for sure, and I struggle to keep the equilibrium and don't have an outside job.
ReplyDeleteMy advice would be to get in the Word. Fight Satan with Truth. When I feel Satan attacking, I will actually verbalize, "Flee from me, Satan!" and my kids think I'm nuts, but he does. I can feel it. And I calm down and go on. But Staying in the Word and meditating on the Truth keeps me going when I feel overwhelmed with life.
Maybe you could have one on one dates with your daughters on the weekend or when you don't work. Just to give them individual attention. I don't know. Just a thought. My husband does it and it has improved his relationship with them for sure.
Know that you are not alone :)