I recently posted
about having so much anger in my heart. I have been dealing with my anger in
unhealthy ways for so long that I don't know how to deal with it in a healthy
way.
Most of the time, I
swallow my anger for fear of upsetting or disappointing someone else. Then, I
erupt. It could take days or months, but eventually that anger spews out of me
like molten lava.
And it spews forth
in various ways.
- It may be in a grumpy attitude which, if not acknowledged by others, progresses to rage and discontentment with everything.
- It may be expressed in passive aggressive ways. I may start "picking" with my husband and it turns to complete disrespect and annoying behavior (on my part).
There was a time
that I used journaling and poetry to deal with my anger. Now, I blog; but I
don't want to disrespect others in front of the whole world, so I don't fully
express myself.
A lot of times,
because I have repressed my anger so much, I don't even know who I am angry
with. So, it's really easy to transfer my anger to whoever is around or whatever
is happening. But, chances are, that's not really what I am angry
with.
How do you deal with
anger?
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